A reflection / My life

Very well put description

This is excellently written.  The things that bolded and in parentheses I have added.

November 20th, 2011 | Author: Fia Marie

Many of us who have Borderline Personality Disorder, know how difficult it is to have us in your life. We know how hard it is to hear us in our depths
of despair. We know how it is to have us in your life. We know how we may come across as manipulative, controlling, unwilling to change, attention-seeking, even intolerable. We know (which makes it so much harder because we hate the pain we cause).

But step back for a moment, really look at us. Inside, you will find the most compassionate, empathetic, kind, giving people you will meet. Yes, you are tired of the chaos– as tired as you are, we are drained, worn down. Yes, you feel trapped by the relationship, as trapped as you feel we are birds banging our heads against the cage wanting to fly. I implore you, do not tell us we do nothing to improve, we have been seeking help most of our lives, we have been fighting to get “normal” forever. We have been actually getting up every morning, this in itself is comparable to climbing Mount Everest, this is “doing something.”

We are not about control, manipulation, lies, we are about fear. We love you, possibly more than most people can feel love and are in sheer terror of losing you, this is the control you speak of. Don’t turn your back on us (or discount how we feel as being “silly” or how we rationalize as being stupid) (unless you are in danger of your life, but most BPD’s I have met hurt only themselves). For when you turn your back on us, you have reinforced the idea that we are unworthy, hopeless, and cannot make it in this world. In my experience, most of the conflicts that arise with BPD’s and Non-BPD’s is miscommunication.

Be clear about what you mean, extremely clear, because what you say is perceived by us as something different. Be reassuring. Don’t say, “I can’t take this right now,” simply start the sentence differently… “You have every right to feel the way you do, but can we talk later. I will call you back at such and such a time.” Be validating.

Don’t ignore a text or a phone call, we have been ignored all our lives and feel invisible. Don’t tell others that we are “crazy.” We are a lot healthier than most people walking around ignoring their feelings, we are learning how to cope.

Don’t tell us we are being overly dramatic, overly sensitive, we are not dramatic, our feelings are real and yes, we are overly sensitive, but is that such a bad thing? I am proud to say that I am sensitive, I am proud to say that when I love, I love with all my soul, I am proud to say that I do understand you, but can you even try to understand me? (Exactly – we know how difficult we are to others and we hate that we hurt others so much.)

Remember too that not all people with Borderline Personality Disorder are the same. Some, like me, are known as the quiet borderline. I torture myself. I turn my pain inward on myself. I do not take my pain or anger out on anyone but myself. There are others with BPD that act out there pain in your direction. We are not all the same.

I am not here preaching about how BPD’s should be catered to. As an analogy: if we had cancer, would you say “I’m tired of taking you for your treatments, fight this on your own?” For some, BPD is as terminal as cancer. As long as they are in treatment and learning to cope, be there because one day that bird that is banging their head against the cage will fly free and you will miss the opportunity to fly with them…

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  1. Pingback: Another post on my other blog | For What It's Worth (The Gozette)

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