A reflection


It’s amazing what can help me. I was in a bad state in my last post a couple of days ago.  I thought I had ruined a friendship. But this friend did what I’ve always needed anyone who calls themselves my friend to do. He clearly explained what he wanted and needed and how he … Continue reading

A rant


  I’ve resisted a long time. Just some scratching is all. I’ve drawn a little blood this time.  Just a little. It was disappointing. There was no pain while I was doing it. There was only stinging afterward. That sucks because I really wanted the pain. Why? I guess to punish myself for fucking up yet … Continue reading