My middle child is planning to move out. He’s 18. A year older than I was when I moved out. I miss him and he hasn’t left yet.
It’s different than when his older brother moved out. My oldest is autistic and I sent him to live with my sister, hoping he would develop more autonomy being away from me. He basically went from sleeping in a bedroom in my house to sleeping in a bedroom at my sister’s house.
My middle boy will be living with a roommate but will be completely responsible for himself.
This got me thinking about my daughter who is almost 11. She could be moving out in 8 years.
Then what do I do? I was married and a mother before I was 21 years old. I’ve spent almost all of my adult life living for my children.
I think I can honestly say that I may have succumbed to suicidal thoughts if it had not been for my children. They kept me going. But what do I have to live for when they’ve all left?
My daughter will turn 18 three days before I turn 50. That still leaves a lot of years ahead of me. What will I possibly have to live for, when my reasons to live are gone?